I finally let go of the ledge — of the fragile edge
A ten years long journey, of ups and downs — of blacks, whites and browns
Comes to a stop without a sound.
I thought it would be hard, But it wasn’t.
What was hard was to trust my heart
Which knew all along.
Every ten years my life pauses, And gives me a chance to reinvent myself
What a wonderful question ..”Now, who do I want to be ?”
I am in a free fall.
A chance to once again pull off the safety net
Of my “certainties” — or the notion — It’s delicious.. this freedom
once I am past the fear..
Earlier I use to circumvent it ,
This..time..I have learnt, to compost it.
To once again have just the wind beneath my wings, and only the certainty
of the universe that holds me
I am in a free fall
In a free fall… I remember learning in physics
Objects lose their identity — ‘Matter’ does not matter.
And so, a big ball and a small ball, the same they will fall.
More or less …. hopefully ..more of the less.
Everything..becomes..behaves — the same. …. Physics..and philosophy….meet finally.
Pulled and held only, by the core of the earth.
Memories flash past my mind, of the time I fell the first few times
millions of years ago — I was such a fireball then.
I am in a free fall
There is an odd comfort in knowing — I have fallen before..and will fall again
Identity … is suspended.
It does not matter who I was or thought I was or wasn’t
Or who others were or I thought they were or weren’t …
I am in a free fall
This … not knowing….who I am..
however temporary…gives rise to deeper faith, makes me..more stretched..
In this pause… I can be anybody..anything.
Maybe be I will be a bird..or a leaf
Or.. maybe a piece of paper
Or.. a firefly
and….
And breathe.. unconstrained
And cry .. unrepressed
And laugh… unbridled
And love….uninhibitedly
And create…unabashed
And …
Fall … upwards
~ Rhea
