Day 44. Here comes the Sun.

Last few months, I have had a strange and changing relationship with the Sun. I have always loved being in the Sun, infact I used to go for my runs in the afternoon. Many years ago, I used to be an ardent ‘Sun worshipper’ and as a practice did sun gazing, which increasingly went upto 15 -20 minutes at a time. It was a supposedly spontaneous practice, meaning no one told me to do it, I did not research –it just happened. And I followed. For the three years that I did do it, my life style, body mind changed. Drastically.

My food intake dropped by almost 80%.. I did not feel hungry and yet I had more energy. I did not really need water, even from before, I had about 1-2 glass per week. Much to the annoyance of my family who constantly worried. But I never really had any health issues. My blood tests never showed any symptoms of less water. I have had to have it like a pill. Something I must remember to take.

It was not rocket science really. We eat food for energy. We cook the vegetables, that have used the sunlight. So instead of doing this long route it just made more sense to bypass the process and get to the source directly. Why not? Less hassle anyway.

My friends jokingly called me “Jadoo” from the cute alien character from the Movie Koi mil gaya. Who needs sunlight to charge. It was true for me. It is true for me. It’s true for Most.

Studies and research have shown a direct correlation between exposure to Sunlight and physical and mental wellbeing. We know that. It ‘s written in the reports as Vit D or B12.

The sun is the closest star to Earth. Even at a distance of 150 million. It’s gravitational pull holds the planet in orbit. It radiates light and heat, or solar energy, which makes it possible for life to exist on Earth. It is one of the Constants. So far.

Without heat from the sun, Earth would freeze. There would be no winds, ocean currents, or clouds to transport water. There would be Nothing.

Last few months, I have felt as if the Sun was speaking, conscious. There would be a conversations. Some days when I am out and depending on what I am thinking, or feeling suddenly the Sun “shows-up” literally right in my eyes. Like someone just shines a bright torch right in your face when you are not expecting it. In a way I have had to actually stop on the road to look at it. I have tried to “dodge’ it also to make sure I was not going crazy not that it mattered. I would change directions and run in the by-lanes just to test my theory. And often sure enough It was again right there. Sometimes it will then show up in ‘reflection’ from a Random window pane or even through a puddle. It was almost like a hide and seek game. After many many times of testing this phenomena, I have now come to accept that the Sun communicates.

And so I am also learning to communicate and listen. It feels like a friend who shows up when I need, even when I don’t know I need. I feel as if inside my body, some tiny things also trying to reach up and out in response to the Sun. Like tiny metal filings gravitate and get pulled towards a magnate.

Following this “phenomena”  and Sun episodes. I got very curious about what was really going on. What is the Sun really doing and how. What is happening inside my body.

And I stumbled upon these amazing things called “Neutrino”

And then it started to make some sense….. Phew!!!

At this point we need to take a different lane of perception, move from Newtonian to Quantum. From singular to multidirectional. From Big to Tiny. From Gross to Subtle. So suspend your “Need to Understand” for a bit.

To start simply, we believe we are made up, entirely of Matter – Not that it matters. But it isn’t true. And that matters. Because ALL Known matter just amounts to 4% anyway. The rest is the mysterious interesting bit. It can perhaps shed light on the 96% of the mysterious parts of us. That is a LOT of us to go un inquired me thinks.

“What lies behind us, and what lies before us are but tiny matters compared to what lies within us.” —Ralph Waldo Emerson |

Ok . So now A little bit about Neutrinos:

Neutrinos are the only fundamental building blocks of matter, like quarks electrons and photons, that have no electrical charge.

The word “neutrino,” invented by Italian physicist Enrico Fermi, means “little neutral one.” Cute and deceptively simple

Neutrinos hardly interact with other particles of matter. And yet they are there.

Billions of them, produced by fusion reactions within the Sun, fly through every person, animal plants matter –  every second. Minuscule and devoid of electric charge, though, they pass unnoticed. In fact, they are practically undetectable

They are sometimes called Ghost particles for obvious reasons.

Neutrinos only, if at all, interact with the weak force, (one of the three forces that hold our universe together). This allows them to escape from dense regions, whereas photons are trapped. Photons are light particles. So Neutrinos go where light cannot AND they are produced by the Sun.

The Sun emits about as many neutrino particles as particles of Light. At night, Earth prevents the light from reaching us, but neutrinos continue to stream right through the globe and through our bodies. ALL the time. How generous of them Sigh !!

We have even as we speak and read and sleep. These Ghost particles entering, changing and leaving our bodies every seconds. Right NOW.

They also come in three “favours”. Like candy.

An intriguing fact is Unlike other particles which need an ‘opposite’ – like matter needs anit-matter. Neutrinos are “complete” in themselves – they become their own Antimatter. And so they just occur and disappear on meeting themselves fully. And don’t React with other particles. They just let them be. Which is why they are undetectable. When something reacts it becomes visible.

Something super interesting I find is, Neutrinos are also called “Shapeshifters” .They can change form and shape at will. Meaning. At one time something can look like Cat at another time it can change into a Dog. We have the “potential’ to do that literally.

It’s no different from me having a microwave at home with the Potential to bake and make my own bread – but it’s complicated and I still don’t know how to use it. That does not change the fact that some day I can.

After three decades of searching, physicists have tracked down these amazing subatomic particles that have eluded them for 30 years. The particles, it turns out, were right there all the while – but had hidden themselves as if by magic

So why is all this Information fo Neutrinos Important?

Given that the known Universe is just 4 percent Known and the remaining 96 percent Unknown – Dark matter and Dark energy – which the – X factor that anyway governs our thoughts and lives…

The Role of a Neutrino is important exciting and humbling

Important because it is impacting us. And we cannot escape this “invisible” orchestra we are in it.

Exciting because it gives us way to stretch out imagination to be and to co-create ourselves

Humbling because we have been given this ‘opportunity’ To Be in Abundance in literally millions by the Sun ever second.

When we are in the Sun maybe, the ‘exposure’ to Neutrinos increases. And we have more access to these amazing Magical Ghost particles.

Maybe, The Sun is not just about “Light” but also the “Dark”. This was new insight for me. We have so miserly judged and labeled the Sun as “Light Only” . I Imagine the Sun trying to tell me that. Maybe that is why Shiva is the Maha Dev – Because he embodies Light and Dark?

This getting the Light and Dark perhaps gives us a chance to even Mimic the Neutrino and explore It’s – our invisible, potential.  No harm in using our Active imagination, we use it for lesser benefits anyway.

Perhaps if we get to know this this Neutrino, non-light – dark matter we have the potential to be like it. Complete. Nonreactive. Shape shifting, invisible but still passing through every experience– even more fully?

Perhaps that is why we feel so Good in the Sun? We are touched by the “invisible”, but now known particles.

I am amazed at how the “Invisible” Neutrinos, have the power to literally “change the Visible”- the rest of known matter.

There are numerous stories like in the Autobiography of Yogi, which I still have to complete reading, or “mythology” of people who changed forms at will. Not understood, It becomes the stuff of stories and magic, and is up for belief debate.

But it did happen. Does happen. And can happen. We are just not aware of it. Whatever we contemplate on and about, we have the reach to become.

Perhaps we need to pay attention to these Neutrinos and imagine embracing the Light and the Dark. Perhaps this “Secret” was kept away because of it’s potential of alerting reality.

And maybe that is why “Dark forces” are presented in a way that is fearful and negative. It has a way of changing our known reality. We are perhaps afraid of our own power.

Perhaps if we didn’t obsess only about the Light so much we could actually begin to change our world, inner and outer, by not separating.

We ARE made of Star stuff, as Carl Segan says.. We are made up of more Unknown than Known. We are Shapeshifters. We have the capacity for Subtle and being ‘complete’ without reaction. Perhaps it’s time we began to SEE ourselves more. And Shift the “Shared view of reality we have bought into. The reality of “OR” and move to “AND”. The reality of Gross Over Subtle. The reality of a Fixed form.

If you keep looking at the Sun you will it see it after a while it turns Black. It may not be just an optical issue.

This separation of Light and Darkness is an optical Delusion. One that we continue to pay a heavy price for. Maybe it’s time for Integration. Here come the New SUN.